My busy season is here so I’ve had a weeding like every weekend for a month. School started back up so you’re gone for almost 4 hours a day. I have meetings and business things at least once or twice a week so your at Grandma Marlene’s a lot lately.

You’ve never had a problem with me leaving before and now every time I take you somewhere like grandmas, you don’t want me to leave. It’s heartbreaking. But I know parents do this all the time with work and raising a family.

My concern is my week long trip coming up here in a week. I think it’s getting harder now that you know I’m going and you’ve been upset more lately when I have to go or at bed time. I think you miss me and I’m not even gone yet and it breaks my heart. I’m so sorry but I also hope you know why I have my job as small of a job as it may be. And I hope you will understand in the future. I never want to hurt you or make you sad.

Luckily I come home on a Friday afternoon and we will have a whole weekend together to cuddle and be attached together before school again. And then only one more wedding this season and I’m all yours for a couple months until bridal shows.

I love you and I hope you will be proud of me one day and that I’m not damaging or ruining our future relationship. Lol.