My grandmother passed away last night.  I have been thinking a lot about this happening lately, as we knew it was coming, and I’ve realized that even if I would have been able to tell her I was pregnant, she wouldn’t have really understood it.  She wouldn’t have known  it was me telling her.  And that makes me extremely sad, but it also helps lift some of the guilt.  I know this is really hard for my mom right now, and I will be keeping her in my thoughts a lot today.  And tomorrow when I have my first appointment, I will be sharing it in my head with my grandmother.  I will miss her so much.